After All

After all After all this time I keep this. This envelope With your broken promises. After all this years I still remember you. Here want to see. Here is pieces of papers broken, shredded, crumbled. Do you want to know what they are? They are your notes. The notes that you wrote to me. That is all I have to remind me that you were once with me. You left. You are gone. I should have thrown them. Burn these letters. But is the only link to you. So I drop the pieces of paper and like a puzzle put the notes back together. After all these years I have no more tears because they all are in those bits of paper. I should throw them, but after all after all this time, they are the only link that can remind me that we were once together...
You were a coward, and I was an imbecile, yes yes I believed you! Believed you would be like me, you who said you loved me. I gave you everything. I showed you, you could be loved when I kiss you. Didn't I?
My kiss. But wasn't that what what you wanted. You only continue to be what you were. You abandoned me, went to that town, Blackeberg that had what! Nothing for you. Left like a coward, left me with a goodbye note. I who worked up thinking that something bad had happened to you, got up like crazy when you didn't answer, I went looking around, thought that someone had....
Came crying and saw the envelope laying on the floor. Ha, all it had was my name. And a piece of paper inside, I read it, like if my whole life depended on it. But the joke was that there was nothing written, only a blank paper... And in a corner there was a box with all our notes we had written to another...
Why couldn't you tell me? I had to read the newspaper to see that they had found you. You who said you would remain with me. What happened to that? So that night I read all those letters that meant nothing to you, that was all a game to you, and that was the last time I cried for you...

Dear Eli,
Let's be always together. I am happy you are with me.

Dear Eli,
You saved me, you are everything I need.

Dear Eli,
Ha, with you I will be to the end..

Dear Eli,
Today I read Romeo and Juliet. Even though the book is hard to read, I understand...

Dear Eli,
Did I ever tell you how much you mean to me....

Dear Eli,
I will be with you, don't ever doubt that....

Dear Eli,
I will never hurt you...

Dear Eli,
I see you sleeping during the day, I will always watch over you, protect you, always....

Lies. It was only lies. I check, I the last time I saw you, you were with someone else, happy,laughing, drunk, then you kiss her, and that's when I knew I was nothing for you.... You forgot me... But even after all of that, I still keep your letters, I still put them together, try to put the pieces again, and after all of that I even after you are dead, I even after all, I still carry you in my heart....